Sometimes, I have wondered what it is that keeps me from attempting to make/keep many friends.
I have had this quandry solved.
I. Hate. Drama.
I have been shown time and time again that friends = drama. I may enjoy acting on stage, but imature friend-fight drama is something that I completely and utterly ABHORE.
Some people think by responding to messages, that makes them mature. No. How you respond sometimes determines the maturity level, and sometimes NO response is the correct response.
No one can EVER truly understand what another person is going through, because NO ONE has the EXACT SAME life! When people complain about not being understood... either EXPLAIN, or get it through your head that they will NEVER understand no matter what. Also, people assume things based on one tiny little piece of knowledge, which is something I hate nearly as much as the broad subject of Drama itself.
"When you assume, you make an "ass" out of "u" and "me." I firmly hold to that. It's true, and it HURTS most of the time.
I don't even try anymore. I tried a few times, for the sake of my best friend, to be able to be in the groups she was in. I won't try any more. All I see is people getting hurt, or hate letters being flung around as if they aren't hurting anyone but the one who wrote them simply as an "expression of emotion." Guess what, kiddos, words DO hurt.
I suppose I am bound to be alone for the rest of my life, because I cannot STAND people anymore.
